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upday??? [Aug. 20th, 2009|08:30 am]
Update. Well saw district 9 last night and I got to say it was an ok movie. I mean I thought it would be a little bit different, but hey. I didn’t like the fact that…. Well never mind, I don’t want to spoil it for anyone.

My car fuel pump is not working. I went to 7.11 yesterday and then came back. But for some reason did didn’t want to start back up today. I had some guy from my apartment look at it. Had to pay him $40 bucks but hey the car started. I still need to get the pump. It’s a $70 part but a $400 dollar repair job. So I’m just going to have to do it myself.

Jackie is back from her 2 week vacation. She’s happy to be back home. Before she left, she toll me that I was her best friend. Now that she’s back I must keep it that way. I don’t want to be hurt again. I thought she liked me, but I was wrong.

School starts in 5 days. Shit! I haven’t even paid for it yet. I heard that if you don’t pay before it starts your automatically dropped. FFFFUUUUUuu….

Work, Work… same old same old. At least I have time to study my Japanese and Spanish.

Work on the house has become slow. Rj and I clean it up real good but now the fun part begins. FUNding… I need to get that loan to start building. All we have to do is clear out all the land out and level it. Steve and Tony have been lazy about it. So far out of the 10 days I’ve worked on it Steve and Tony been there only one day. So yeah Steve! I know your reading this! We only got 1 month and 1 week to clean up the place. But even still I’m going to need more than 4 people to get this building made. I got 3 other people that want to help but also want to live there too. Well I’ll see how it goes.

A little more than 2 more months till my 21st birthday. Lol can’t wait!

(I didn’t laugh when I put lol) …. Now I did…

konban wa
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(no subject) [Aug. 15th, 2009|01:06 am]
lets see, go to build a house at rjs. I've started cleaning up the junk of the land. Hopefully I'll be done with most of it by my birthday. I work 10 am to 12am on Sunday for overtime... yeah thats right 14 hours. why not, thats $100! I think Im giving up on liking jackie. I love her but I know she doesn't love me in that why. Maybe as a friend, but I am fine with that. One person at work had a heart attack today. Witch made me think, I better start eating better.

Need to learn more japanese! I'm still a noob <{^.^}< (you suck)

Froot loops

I'm getting older, I can feel it... lol
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well it's over [Jul. 26th, 2009|11:52 pm]
comic con has ended and yes this time I when all 5 days. I didn't really get anything but got a lot of free stuff. I didn't really dress up like anything this year. I'm surprised I didn't but hey volunteering for 4 days kinda sucks anyways. I keep saying this but I'm going to have to start on my costume now. but at the moment I'm going to stop thinking about comic con because I just get tried even thinking about it.

On the a new subject.

Well, I had this day dream (well night dream you can say). So I need to write about it before I forget.
I had a dream were my father won the lotto, but then died shortly after. but I couldn't spend any of it till I was like 25. So I was thinking if I didn't have to work I would be doing all kinds of stuff for the city. Frist I would go to school part time, just like 10 hours a week. It would take me 6 years to get what I want but I didn't have to worry about money. Then I would volunteer everywhere! hospitals, Vets, Stores, homeless shelters, small businesses, clean up roads, everywhere. That way everyone in San Diego would know me. I would go to each job and ask the people what would make life easier. Then clean up the orange line trolley (It's bad). Then after 2 years of doing that I try to get a bigger roll were people could see my face. So they would know who I am. I would try to get on the news, dress up in something crazy, Learn 5 languages(Yes random). Then I would try to get a government job in El Cajon, la mesa, etc. You knows what happens next. Basically just try to get San Diego a better place.

I have a other thing to talk about that has been on my mind a lot lately. I fell in love with a girl that I knew I've shouldn't have.

Lets start from the beginning. in high school I had a small crush on this girl in robotics. Now she lives with me and I sleep right next to her every night. From the start I knew that I could not fall in love with her, since she was going to be moving to LA soon. But now I think she likes an other girl that lives far from here. Every time I hug her she kinda shrugs me off. Every time I look at her I want to kiss her. Every time I'm with her I feel better. I want to tell her my true fillings, but I'm afraid that she will just stay a way from me. I already think she knows my fillings, that's why she stays her distance. God, shes pretty. Shes any guys dream girl. I want her, but she doesn't want me... (lol, fucking emo fag me)

I should be happy that shes my friend though. And I am! like 2 weeks ago she call me her best friend. Witch I was happy that she called me that. But still, what don't I have that she wants. What is it?

I'm done, thinking about it just makes me more frustrated.

Well I'm broke, I'm late on my credit card payment, water, cox, SDG&E, and everything else.

I need a vacation from this week vacation.

On a liter note, I won some really kool stuff from comic con. Speakers, AMD fan that lites up. and over 10 shirts! Saw really kool people. Talked to that guy from Neapolitan dynamite. lol, I made like 2 fake badges that turned out all right. I also saw crisy for about 5 seconds yesterday. I was like 2 feet away from her, and she didn't even looked at me. I'm not mad for her leaving me, but I do want to ask her "why"? It's funny too because sometimes I see girls that kinda looks like her. I stop and can't breathe for a second. But when I saw her, her hair was way dark. So I guess I gotten over it.

lol, Twilight is still gay!

My co worker asked for her day off on my birthday.. FML...

All in all, I got to admit that I am a little depressed (EMO fag). I have no girl to share my life with. There's a girl that I wish I had. Work is a bit boring and my room is messy (lol).

All I have to live for is this... I know my name is Robert loveless, but I know that I have more love than any other guy out there. My friends are important, my schooling is important, my family is important. It's just missing one thing. My love
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(no subject) [Jul. 10th, 2009|07:28 pm]
[Current Location |US, California, San Diego]

I don't know what to do? I love her. Do I really? I want to know.

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(no subject) [Jul. 5th, 2009|06:12 pm]
[Current Location |US, California, San Diego]

Let see if this works. I just got an iPhone 5 days ago. So I'm going to leave a message.

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black wings [Jun. 22nd, 2009|04:07 am]
I can feel my wings turning black behind me. This black aura I can see. It makes me want to change. Good or bad, I don't care.

my wings were gray before.



You Know I'm just fucking with you.....
So yeah, overtime tomorrow. kool! its like getting paid $20 an hour.
Comic con is almost here!
I'm broke and rich at the same time.
I"m thinking about building a small house... Yeah like a real house! If I can build it around Rj's house then yeah.. I would have to do is put down like $10,000 and I'm set. But hey it may take me a year or so but hey. MY OWN HOUSE! FUCK YEAH...

So my one idea about the air force just ended. I was thinking about it for like a year or so but now that Justin hates it. I would hate it too. So yeah, I gotta do something crazy. Like rock climbing. Or buy a motorcycle. Fucking something!

Some days I feel like she has feelings for me. But Some days I do wonder?

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the Loved
We seek it thus and take to the skies
Ripples form on the water's surface
The wandering soul knows no rest

The unloved. I

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(no subject) [Jun. 19th, 2009|03:48 am]
comic con? anyone?
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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2009|05:32 am]
good morning.

I must say this.

I am very dirty.
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2009|05:21 am]
Why must I be cruse with this last name.
I hate to say it but love can be a wonderful thing but it also can turned into hate.

There’s a girl that I like. I know that she knows that I like her. But I have no idea what she thinks of me. Does she like me? Or just want to be friends.

Its really brothering me. Because

I want to love
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A update on my life thus far. [May. 7th, 2009|04:06 am]
School has been in a stand still right now. I’m only doing one class online, and I’m barely making an effort to do anything. Hopefully I can do like 2 -3 classes in summer school. I should load up like 5 classes in fall because I really need to get that degree. Why start something and don’t finish it? I’m not lazy, just unmotivated.
Mother is doing alright. Paul and Jose are the same. Jenny… is well jenny. Nothing much to say since I moved out of my house. At least I don’t have to drive my mom everywhere any more since she got a car now. I guess that’s a good thing.
Well since all my friends and I moved out its been one wild ride. Steve still acts like himself. Tony wants to kill some people… well technically no, but still. Matt hates poo-poo games (long story). Grody leaves in the early morning and comes at like 9 at night. Witch makes me think was does he do? RJ still likes to drink a pack and smoke a pack a day. Omar still thinks weed is the cure for anything. Pretty much everyone is the same. Except me
Work is pretty kool, all I do is sit at a computer for 8 hours answer phone calls and give people orders. It’s like a being supervisor, it’s kool but I wish I could be doing stuff also. I heard that some guy at the front desk quit, so maybe I’ll ask about that. I wouldn’t mind walking around in a suite. Also since I would be looking like Dr. Who.
Life has hit me hard. I’m 20 almost turning 21. Still single.  I lost my girlfriend back in December. It almost would have been 2 years. I don’t hate her, but I guess it would have not worked out. Nonny is gone, witch I still think about from time to time. I haven’t seen rayman for about 6 months, who I still miss. I am miserable but hopeful all at the same time. I guess this is it. This is real life. I like a challenge. I like doing the hard way out.
I want to thank a special someone named Jackie. Without her I would be playing world of warcraft all day in my pjs doing nothing…………. Well…… that’s what we did yesterday but still. It was together. She makes me want to do stuff. She’s always fun to be around with. I only wish that everyday could be like that.
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