|well it's over
||[Jul. 26th, 2009|11:52 pm]
comic con has ended and yes this time I when all 5 days. I didn't really get anything but got a lot of free stuff. I didn't really dress up like anything this year. I'm surprised I didn't but hey volunteering for 4 days kinda sucks anyways. I keep saying this but I'm going to have to start on my costume now. but at the moment I'm going to stop thinking about comic con because I just get tried even thinking about it. |
On the a new subject.
Well, I had this day dream (well night dream you can say). So I need to write about it before I forget.
I had a dream were my father won the lotto, but then died shortly after. but I couldn't spend any of it till I was like 25. So I was thinking if I didn't have to work I would be doing all kinds of stuff for the city. Frist I would go to school part time, just like 10 hours a week. It would take me 6 years to get what I want but I didn't have to worry about money. Then I would volunteer everywhere! hospitals, Vets, Stores, homeless shelters, small businesses, clean up roads, everywhere. That way everyone in San Diego would know me. I would go to each job and ask the people what would make life easier. Then clean up the orange line trolley (It's bad). Then after 2 years of doing that I try to get a bigger roll were people could see my face. So they would know who I am. I would try to get on the news, dress up in something crazy, Learn 5 languages(Yes random). Then I would try to get a government job in El Cajon, la mesa, etc. You knows what happens next. Basically just try to get San Diego a better place.
I have a other thing to talk about that has been on my mind a lot lately. I fell in love with a girl that I knew I've shouldn't have.
Lets start from the beginning. in high school I had a small crush on this girl in robotics. Now she lives with me and I sleep right next to her every night. From the start I knew that I could not fall in love with her, since she was going to be moving to LA soon. But now I think she likes an other girl that lives far from here. Every time I hug her she kinda shrugs me off. Every time I look at her I want to kiss her. Every time I'm with her I feel better. I want to tell her my true fillings, but I'm afraid that she will just stay a way from me. I already think she knows my fillings, that's why she stays her distance. God, shes pretty. Shes any guys dream girl. I want her, but she doesn't want me... (lol, fucking emo fag me)
I should be happy that shes my friend though. And I am! like 2 weeks ago she call me her best friend. Witch I was happy that she called me that. But still, what don't I have that she wants. What is it?
I'm done, thinking about it just makes me more frustrated.
Well I'm broke, I'm late on my credit card payment, water, cox, SDG&E, and everything else.
I need a vacation from this week vacation.
On a liter note, I won some really kool stuff from comic con. Speakers, AMD fan that lites up. and over 10 shirts! Saw really kool people. Talked to that guy from Neapolitan dynamite. lol, I made like 2 fake badges that turned out all right. I also saw crisy for about 5 seconds yesterday. I was like 2 feet away from her, and she didn't even looked at me. I'm not mad for her leaving me, but I do want to ask her "why"? It's funny too because sometimes I see girls that kinda looks like her. I stop and can't breathe for a second. But when I saw her, her hair was way dark. So I guess I gotten over it.
lol, Twilight is still gay!
My co worker asked for her day off on my birthday.. FML...
All in all, I got to admit that I am a little depressed (EMO fag). I have no girl to share my life with. There's a girl that I wish I had. Work is a bit boring and my room is messy (lol).
All I have to live for is this... I know my name is Robert loveless, but I know that I have more love than any other guy out there. My friends are important, my schooling is important, my family is important. It's just missing one thing. My love